Yo-yo, ya thats right I said it twice!

HELLO! I've been gone for almost a week-since its summer vaca and all! But MAN ITS HOT! Anyway I've read 2 new magazines today and I've been going through old ones trying to get rid of them! (total packrat!) and I've just been thinking about what I want to do with my life! I'm really sure I want to study nursing but I most likely won't work full time in the traditional setting, at least not later on down the road! I'm way to random & untradish. for that! But a few months ago I read an article about how kids and teens these days are doing crazy crap to be considered famous! Like striving to be actresses or singers, but sometimes people will do other stuff to get noticed and how its almost a disease to us. And I have to say I've caught a little bit of the bug! I can't help it-its not really that I can act and want to or that I can sing and I want to (though I'd rather sing). I serioulsy want to be a pro-athlete! I think its because no matter which sport I try (and I've seriously played many over the years!) I've never been good at them! Seriously I try so hard to be a good thrower and its just not enough, I set goals and work hard in practice and even study sports psychology! Yet nothing really gets me as far as I'd like! And somewhere along my travels I heard someone say that everyone has their sport so I guess I'm searching for it. Yet I still want to be a pro and be famous. But I will admit that part of it is being on a team and having that 2nd-fam built in and get paid for it! And I love being a role model- I don't really consider it pressure at least not bad pressure! Its a blessing to me. But anyway thats whats been on my mind for the last few hours!

Now I'm going to find a way to workout without passing out due to heat!

Ash!

Ah....The anguish of August!

Oi...to the friggn' Vay! Sports start next monday....And I can't make up my mind! I signed up to try soccer....even though its only a club thing! But XC's an option....and it sounds better than soccer right now. I prob wont be that good...but its trying something new...and proving that I can do it! But the thing that I REALLY WANT TO DO is to sell Mark and My jewelry @ parties and shows...but....ya....asking my mom to let me do that is like talking to a wall! lol A small minded one! So....I have no idea what to do! IM FREAKING OUT!

Also...I started that whole workout challenge thing...and its not over till the end of sept...so even though i havent done that well on it...I still really really want to but a sport might mess that up! BUT...Im still really unsure and freaking out! Actually....I'll get on the treadmill now....maybe I'll get some inspiration!?!? lol...or I'll just dream! lol BYE!